to start with...

I've tried this before, but failed miserably. It's probably the most shameful exposition of the self the net could have thrown at us.Yes i AM talking of "blogging". This time i got lured in by the looks. Superficiality appeals to all.

There are probably a million and one thots that breeze thru my head each day, but the motivation to sit down and actually put them down lacks in me in a very big way.

Its a new year. Yes a sad beginning indeed. Especially living in a country directly affected by the Tsunami. Many things struck me as the horrific weeks of unending pain unfolded infront of my eyes on TV. Firstly how helpless and insignificant we are when it comes to Mother Nature. I am a pictoral person. I visualise EVREYTHING. Imagine a lone man standing on a deserted beach, stretching for miles around. The darkening skies, flashes of thunder hidden by the overcast sky. A mammoth silent sea breathing. The mammothness, the sheer magnitutde of evrything is, simply put HUMBLING. We are but tiny miniscule humans driven by ambition and imagination to seek our place under the skies. And all it takes is one heave by Mother Earth to throw EVERYTHING topsy turvy.
Evrything is wrecked decimated. Nothing stands.

It was probably over in 30 minutes. 1.25 lakh, LAKH, were dead. Just 30 minutes it took for all this to happen. And its funny how we took whole weeks to figure out how many were dead. We were probably like the ants you'd see scurry in confusion if you'd kick an ant hill. Its funny how insignificant we are.

Yes we are a magnificient race. We have our artists, singers, musicians, actors, engineers, thinkers, scientists. We push the limits of our existence through sheer imagination. We blur the edges and tug at them, stretching in every direction. But all it took was a single heave. And it all came crashing down like a house of cards.

If anything else, thru this incident, i gained respect. It was a reminder that no matter how great we maybe we still are extrememly insignificant. We are small and we should respect that. "Humility is a great virtue"- it seems such a hollow statement. As if its like some new hi-fi-music system worth having just to increase your value in the "cool" department. I think we just got the best reasons as to why we should recognise what we are and respect our position in the scheme of things.

Its at times like this. At times of great joy or grief, when we should sit back and introspect on the meaningfulness of our lives. Are what we doing worth it. Are we actually living for a purpose. As long as you can ask yourself that question and answer yourself honestly. I think you are doing fine.

Guess i got a little carried away there. But thats all on my mind presently.
Bye. Hope you'll be around to read me up again.