Have a horrible feeling all my posts in this period will have a very similar tone. Have moments each and everyday when I shut out everything, darken my room and lie still in my bed to think of what is happening, trying to make sense of things. Point is I'm too tired to even stay awake for thirty seconds. At any given point in 24 hours I could lie on my bed and be off to sleep in 30 seconds!
Today the brief half minute showed me glimpses of sunnier days and happier smiles. When I lived a happier life, or atleast what now seems immensely enviable to me. When I could dream of a hundred magical possibilities. And now even they seem burnt. It's painful for me to think I can't get back those thoughts; almost seems like all the places, the people who were mine aren't anymore. They're all hijacked by my doubts. Torn away.
Its a funny state when nothing surprises you. This song just makes a WHOLE lot of sense now.
A heart that's full up like a landfill
A job that slowly kills you
Bruises that won't heal
You look so tired and unhappy
Bring down the government
They don't, they don't speak for us
I'll take a quiet life
A handshake of carbon monoxide
No alarms and no surprises
No alarms and no surprises
No alarms and no surprises
Silent, silent
This is my final fit, my final bellyache with
No alarms and no surprises
No alarms and no surprises
No alarms and no surprises please
Such a pretty house, such a pretty garden
No alarms and no surprises (let me out of here)
No alarms and no surprises (let me out of here)
No alarms and no surprises please (let me out of here)
-No Surprises, Radiohead
